Guess today is just one of those days. I didn't do anything to lead to this, this lonliness. Well according to Kenzie today making a cd for a girl is a pretty big deal, well when I was making them, I'm not going to lie it felt like a big deal. Whatever. Well I was hoping to see that 1 missed call alert after not being near my phone for two hours. I guess that gives me some hope, I don't know why. Who knows maybe that means something good is going to happen, or absolutley nothing is going to happen (high possibility). But I will still keep a cool mindset.
I need College. But isn't that what everybody says? I mean it's not like you can run away from the present. Oh lord how I wish I could.
College, it's coming. I'm so scared but I'm not, I feel like it's time. I wish I could just break it to my dad that I don't want to play baseball in college, even though I do. But ball and school are not going to mix. I know it's going to let him down, it let's me down. Very depressing thoughts :( but college is going to be so awesome. Smoke a stogie every night with my roommate I hope it's gonna be that easy.more than anything I hope there is going to be a nice gym, that would really dissapoint me if there isn't :(